Friday, July 08, 2005

dear oh dear boys

A lot of thoughts at this moment but also don't know how to put it into words. Actually i always have a lot of thoughts. I'm a dreamer. Yes i can dream both in the day and night. Very impressive right. Chanced upon a video clip this morning as i was clearing stuff off my hard disk which is exploding. No it's not porn. No it's not something i downloaded (and i say again i'm not a pirate). Actually it's a short 20 minutes video clip from more than a year back. I'm not going to elaborate on what this video contains as it's rather personal. But it brought back a lot of memories. I said earlier i'm a dreamer right. Some people live in the past. Some live for the present. Some look far ahead into the future. The latter might possibly be the ones who accomplish more. 2 things here. (1) i said might. (2) the entire statement might not even be true. I'm more of a mix of the first 2 types. I believe the past is important and history (in any sense) shapes who we are. Of course we can't possibly keep living in the past. We call this type of people despondents. We got to live for the present at the very least. But i'm not one who likes to look to far out into the abyss. Those who know me would probably know i have no idea what i want to be when i graduate (or should i say if i graduate). Hell, i don't even know what i want to be or do next week. I'm happy the way i currently am. Maybe. Having enough to eat and enjoy doing things i like. Maybe i've not grown up at the ripe old age of 21 and am really still a kid inside. At least sometimes. Is this wrong?? Maybe. Maybe not.

Wow digress a lot here. Yah back to my video clip. Very hard to put what i'm thinking into words here. Maybe it's fate or destiny that 2 or more people can meet and get aquainted with each other. But after that initial brushstroke by fate, it'll go and take a backseat and the persons will have to take over the baton to maintain it. Yes i'm talking about friendships. In a way i am. 2 friends can drift apart if no effort is made on either side's part to maintain or sustain it. If you were originally very good friends, it might become good friends over a period of time. If it was only an aquaintance, then it'll be even more difficult. As a very lazy person, i got to admit i've made many friends and also lost many over my 2 decades of existance. It's rather sad sometimes. Really. Stupid video clip (no i don't mean it).

Just got my hands on dear boys act II vol 17 and 18. Have already forgotten when this series started. Have already forgotten when vol 16 was published. All i know is that it's a bloody bloody long wait. For those who have no idea what i'm talking about, i'm talking about a comic book. Got my hands on 17 but forgot what the hell 16 was about. And for that matter 15, 14, 13..... Think need to go back and recap a bit before advancing. Why can't it be faster. I think it has been a couple of years if i'm not wrong. For a comic book. Sigh. Just wanted to complain somewhere. It's a nice comic really.

Watched jue dui superstar on channel u earlier. Standard not very high i feel. Actually not comfortable with a number of things. During the performance show, one of the judge spoke rojak chinese or should i say rojak english as the majority of her (oops) comment was in english. but this is a chinese singing competition show right? During the results show, the arrangement was very messy. The hosting was not smooth. The computer jackpot thing is a lame idea and it sucks. A lot of things just felt wrong. Don't know why. Singapore idol that time was better i feel in terms of arrangement at least. My personal feelings ok.

And here's another song from Team America like i said i would.

I missed you more than Michael Bay missed the mark
When he made Pearl Harbour.
I missed you more than the movie missed the point.
And that's an awful lot girl.
And now, now you've gone away.
All I'm trying to say
Is Pearl Harbour sucked and
I miss you.

I need you like Ben Affleck needs acting school.
He was terrible in that film.
I need you like Cuba Gooding needs a bigger part.
He's way better than Ben Affleck.
Now, all I can think about is your smile.
And that shitty movie too.
Pearl Harbour sucked and
I miss you.

Pearl Harbour sucked,
Just a little bit more than I miss you.

Nice right?! Catch the show if you can.

1 Comments:

Blogger kanyon said...

your title. read it again. super gay

8/7/05 11:44 PM  

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