i'm green

I'm GREEN, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

Actually not bad right. Quite accurate. Nice colour. I'm not a bad person actually. But growth and vigor?? What growth and vigor?? Where?? Haha.


Something interesting i caught on the net.
The pose all footballers must know:

merry x'mas

I know what my blog is currently lacking. It's a christmas tree. To propagate this xmas spirit. Haha... so here it is. Some of you might find this familiar. Yeah... you're probably right. So before things gets nasty here... here goes.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

圣诞夜　I'm sad　你远远在天边　送给我哭泣的季节
浸泡一整年浓厚思念　全为你崩溃

圣诞夜　I pray　爱情快出现　想有个美丽的爱恋
你看见我传给你的字汇　却看不见我掉的眼泪

我把城市找了一遍 就是没能见到你的面
天都黑了心在外继续流连　说她还没找到你陪
早晨阳光声音亮的清脆　我的爱情也支离破碎

身边朋友永远不缺　只是电话响了不想接
有好几天我失去你的连线　我只能活在我的世界
真实拥有感觉离我很远　我只能幻想满足心愿


A friend listed out everyone he wanna thank and is thankful for this festive season and i find it very sweet. Me... i don't have that many friends anyway. And anyway i've wished everyone a merry xmas earlier. But I AM indeed very thankful for all my friends and the things they did or do. Really.

This is also a season for reflection at the end of the year. Another friend wrote about an event that left a very deep impression on him recently on his blog. Was just reading it. And it left a very deep impression on me also. We should all be thankful for what we have and the people surrounding us. And we should think whether are we doing the "right" things actually.

This is also the season for forgiveness. I forgive all those who have done me wrong. And i hope whoever felt i've done wrong against can forgive me. I really didn't mean it.

This is the season for giving. I understand the damning effect and aftermath that the KPMG report will have on i think charity on the whole. Yes what happened was very wrong. And now that this episode has blown into this proportion i doubt the 'culprits' can run very far. At least not in Singapore. And i actually do believe that the government will do something. But that should not diminish the needs of some other charities. We should contribute IF we can still. But there's also the problem of some boogey charity fundraising out there.


Just obtained my results yesterday. Also don't know whether to laugh or to cry. How did i fare?? Maybe i should say an average set of results for an average student. Really average. Not cut out for this i still think. But gotten used to it already actually after so long. And yes... i'll still try my best to work harder next semester. My first resolution it is.


On a much happier note : Gombak United FC will be back next year. Yeah. At least no need to wait till i earn big bucks and buy over and revive the club.

Because that might take another hundred years. And i don't even wanna live that long.


Yes... cherish your loved ones and your friends my friends. Merry X'mas!!

interesting reads abt newcastle

From the web:

Some interesting comments from Laurent Robert, taken from France Football magazine and translated by Sky:

"Before leaving Newcastle, I had a lot of propositions and some beautiful ones like Bolton, Manchester City or great Scottish clubs. I had choice and I think I still have it. I didn't come to Portsmouth to stay on the bench, but I am going to work to get back my first team place. Between me and l'OM, it is always the same trite news story, which often reappears during transfer window periods. But a player in my situation could indeed attract Marseille from January."

"Newcastle is a club that will remain great to me, but the contrary is true (for them). I think I have marked Newcastle's history and I remain in several fans' hearts. Before I came we didn't hear a lot about Newcastle. I don't say I was their miracle player, but I have participated in their improvement. I left a more than positive image there. However, I don't think I will go back."

So, a century of history counted for nothing until along came Laurent in 2001, to propel us into the stratosphere. And as for marking our history, we'd prefer to use the term blighted - after his self- inflicted absence from the Lisbon UEFA defeat and urine-extracting non -performance at Cardiff. Nice goals; shame he couldn't get his head of his derriere long enough to be a legend.

PS - Bolton? beautiful? the man's mad!


From the book i just read:

"Shearer stops me taking the throw-in. I lose it, throw the ball at him. 'You prick,' he sneers. The way he says it i know he means it. I go for him, try to grab him by the throat. He's grinning. He gestures dismissively. The red card comes out. Shearer's right. I am a prick. Fell into the trap"
-- Roy Keane reveals his respect for Alan Shearer's gamesmanship in his autobiography.

"Not a team-sheet but a suicide note."
-- Journalist Tim Rich on Gullit's Shearer-less line-up for the 1999 Tyne-Wear derby.


Words of wisdom - and other kinds of words - from Sir Bobby Robson:

"I can't sit there laughing, can I? Is that what you want? Ha ha ha - like that? Oh, penalty, ha ha ha. Oh, it's saved. Ha ha. No it's gone in. Ha ha. What do you expect me to look like?"
-- when asked about his downcast expression in 2003.

"Everyone's got tough games coming up - Manchester United have got Arsenal, Arsenal have got Manchester United and Leeds have got Leeds."

"We mustn't be despondent. We don't have to play them every week - although we do play them next week as it happens."

"Kevin Dyer."
--Sir Bobby's name for Kieron Dyer, closer than his name for Shola Ameobi:"Carl Cort".

"He's got his legs back, of course - or his leg - he's always had one but now he's got two."

"We can't replace Gary Speed - where do you get an experienced player like him with a left foot and a head?"

"Anything from 1-0 to 2-0 would be a nice result."


Funny right some of the things people can say. Ha ha.



Anyway on a much gloomier note... this semester's results will be out in approximately 15 hours. This might be my last post, people.....





No lah... just kidding... wish me luck...

Happy Birthday to some people.

colour

New colour added to my life. But apart from that nothing much will change. A bit too bright i feel. But also cannot do anything else.

Met with a few a couple of things recently. Trying to get it flushed out of my systems. But still lingering somewhere. A bit on the low side.

My results will be out technically tomorrow afternoon. After that it might only get worse.

CORS will commence on the 27th. AGAIN!! Sigh....

Another reason for the lack of christmas mood.

Now reading a small book on newcastle united. Quite interesting.



"天灰" -- S.H.E <不想长大>

如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什么叫永远

想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言 一点点摧毁

here's to all loners

Remember that i said earlier that i don't feel any of the christmas mood at the moment?? No?? Then lift you finger and scroll down a bit and you will find out that it's true... h*** yeah it's true. Well thus i made a trip down to orchard to try to 感染 the atmosphere if there's any with some of my friends. Ok you got me. That's not the reason. But there's a lot of lights. And a lot of people. But which weekend doesn't. Anyway wanted to watch King Kong. Yeah that could be a better reason. But due to the overwhelming popularity and great marketing all the earthly-hours shows are sold out by the time we got our butts there after dinner. So me and kong 没缘分 it seems. Another time then. Took a photo on the hustle and bustle but somehow cannot load. Take photos also no use it seems.

"in a place where no one really knows you, almost everyone is nice... everyone just gets on with their lives because paths do not cross..... alone, you don't have to worry about these. you don't need to worry that you will be misunderstood by your friends. you don't need to force yourself to console or help your friends when you are, bloodly h*** in deeper s**t than them and yet they do not know. some would just think that you simply don't care enough to be concerned about their si huo. what they do not know is it is actually them that are not concerned enough about you to sense your anguish...."

This is quoted from a somewhere a few of you might know. Talking about being a loner and more introverted and more. Almost like reading my story there. Haha. Almost. Enjoying your time alone and doing things alone at times do not make you weird. Right?? Was watching a taiwanese variety show interviewing dicky zhang wei jian. I think he put it quite nicely.

我享受孤独浪漫。

当然，我也向往与别人的浪漫。

Then there are people talking about depression. No. You are not suffering from depression.

I hope i'm not also. Haha. I'm not.

Have you ever bought or got your hands on a certain album (by whatever means you have) because of a certain or couple of songs. And ended up delightfully surprised by the majority of the album or another tune. Happened quite often actually. I remember the 1st... no 2nd album i bought. 1st was backstreet boys and i'll stop there. I bought coldplay's parachutes because i really liked "yellow". At the end of the day it was "sparks" that took my ears away or whatever way you'll put it. Then it was eric clapton's "chronicles" for "tears in heaven". Turned out "river of tears" was as good if not better. A lot more actually. So actually cannot trust the radio stations too much. Haha. Below is another:

For today's Tune-In, i'm proud to recommend:

"力量"
Performed by: 罗志祥
<催眠SHOW>

想念 长了翅膀 他跟着我流浪
独自 背着行囊 看着人来人往

躺在陌生的床 眼睛没办法合上
想着这些年过了一关又一关

也许我太逞强
但是我无时无刻都在想 你的臂弯

给我力量 陪我闯荡
也许我们都不讲
把爱留在 我的心上
超越了太多梦想
时光匆忙 不曾遗忘
随时可以回头看 那些时光
你在身旁 给我的温暖

我力量 陪我闯荡
也许我来不及讲
你给的爱 放在心上
陪伴着每个夜晚
时光匆忙 不曾遗忘
有天可以回头看 那些时光
你在身旁 忘记了悲伤

here without you

For all WWE fans, you should have known by now Eddie Guerrero has passed away. Actually i think it's like a month ago. And you might have caught his tribute video. Very sad. And the song featured is very nice. Here Without You by 3 Doors Down. Finally got my hands on the song thanks to a good friend who unfortunately might relate better to this song than anyone else at the moment. Be strong. Really like the song very much. Also don't know why. For those who know me well i don't really keep up with english songs nowadays. Only upon recommendations by friends. One of the reason i prefer chinese songs nowadays is because of the melody and lyrics. I find a lot of english songs just don't hold any meaning anymore. A lot not all. Of course there are still a lot of nice english songs. And this is one of them.

My computer is throwing tantrums again. A lot of error messages these few days. Processing speed becomes very slow. And even the sound and speakers start to cock up. Am thinking of formatting but really detest the hussle and the chore of installing everything again. Please get well ok.

Been home for the majority of time this week owing in no small part to my weird sleep pattern. As you can see i'm still awake and thinking and typing right now. Long story. Playing some games. Losing interest fast. Trying to get my computer well. Giving up fast. Think it may be time to hit some books and get the brain juices churning again. Feel very stupid and slow and useless nowadays. At least i'm starting to run a bit on some nights.

Christmas just around the corner. No christmas mood around me.

Champions League playoff draw this morning and one of my friend is SO excited about the results of the draw for his team. My team is nowhere near this draw at the moment.

Wonder what a hermit crab is thinking??

Wonder how the boy who slipped in the coffee shop in front of me is feeling??

Staring into the night sky and listening to music i like 别有一番滋味.

Part of the reason why i bought my current phone other than the fact that it has good functions is that i can use the much improved camera (at least compared to my previous phone) to take pictures and post here. But also don't know why till date there is still a astounding count of zero self taken photos appearing here. Everytime see something interesting or nice also forget i have a camera with me. When i remember it's too late. These kind of things have been happening to me all my life. Maybe it's also because i don't like to take pictures of others in public... just like i don't like people just snapping me in public. Maybe this is a good time to start.

Cherish the people and things around you because (touch-wood) you might not have another chance to do so.

Want to carry out a gigantic and almost impossible "project". Want. But a lot of resistance. Maybe.



"Here Without You"
Performed by: 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

from souness' mouth...

Newcastle manager Graeme Souness launched a passionate defence of captain Alan Shearer after seeing him bully Arsenal into submission.

The 35-year-old striker enjoyed an x-rated tussle with former England team-mate Sol Campbell before setting up Nolberto Solano for a superb 82nd-minute winner as the Magpies ended their run of four matches without a victory.

Wenger was later less than complimentary about Shearer's physical approach, but Souness was delighted with his warhorse. "Alan Shearer is the best centre-forward that you English have ever had of that style," he said. "I think he plays it in such a manly fashion that is great to see and extremely effective."

Souness added: "He's playing with his back to play. He's not the biggest man in the world, but I doubt if there is anyone with a bigger heart.

"He plays facing the wrong way - he's facing his own goal 95% of the time and he's playing against generally men who are a lot bigger than him, and most certainly a lot younger than him.

"You ask any centre-half, they would not enjoy his style of play because he plays it like a true man.

"He's a handful for anybody and there's absolutely nothing wrong with his style in my eyes, and I have always thought that, long before I came here.

"We are in the north and in the north we are maybe more confrontational that other parts of the country. Alan epitomised that. That's part and parcel of the English game, and if Arsene's unhappy with that...."



I wouldn't want to play against him. Hopefully he gets his two or three more goals.

cui mian zi ji

你是真的快乐？
还是害怕承认。
以为这样痛会少一点。
所以催眠自己，
选择看不见，
以为这样 快乐就不会不见。



Tune-In : 诗恋 -- 蔡诗蕓《紫外线》


What do you hate most??

exams chronicles

Trying to stay away from words. Don't feel like writing anything. Till now that is. Gotta get out of the shadows. I think by now the NUSians should have finished with or being finished by the final exams. Me unfortunately belong to the latter. Didn't do very well in my opinion this time. That's quite an understatement if you ask me. But there's really nothing i can do now except to pray and hope. There's no pint in crying over this big puddle of spilled milk also. Gotta move on but still suffering a bit of the hangover from the exams. This semester felt so long. So tiring. Also don't know why. Just heard also that the results will be released on the 22nd of this month. That's three days before christmas. Trying to spoil my mood again as usual. That's a little less than three weeks away. Until then then. Trying not to think so much. Trying to "enjoy" my holidays. A very short one at that. At least when compared to the previous or next one in whichever way you like to look at it. Got this feeling i'll waste my time away and accomplish nothing and have no idea what happened at the end of it. Enjoy everyone.

Took six modules this semester. Five final papers. The other one (i.e. ME2103 Engineering Visualisation and Modeling) is a non-examinable module and we've long ago got the final quiz over and done with.

Saturday 19th Nov 05

GEK1006 : Dynamics Of Interpersonal Effectiveness

My arts gem. A pretty interesting, enjoyable and slack module this semester. No homework whatsoever. Don't even need to prepare anything for the fortnightly tutorial classes. Just need to show up, smile, act friendly, hold hands and introduce yourself. Ok... that's the first one lah. Drawback is that the weekly lecture is too early and always have trouble waking up. But at least the lecturer/professor tried to make it interesting. Final paper was manageable. That it's an open book paper helps tremendously.

Monday 21st Nov 05
ME2134 : Fluid Mechanics I

Two words. C***ed Up. Sorry for the language here. A terrible paper to say the least. Already don't quite understand what this module wants going into the exams and came out worse off. Worst paper done till date in my study career. Ever. Four questions and not one part can give me any confidence. Don't even have the chance to write (b) in my answer booklet. All these even though we were allowed the luxury of carrying into the exam hall two helpsheets. And if there is ever a time when you forget to bring your helpsheet to an exam... this is a good time. Absolutely no use at all (ok exaggerate a bit here... used a couple of formulae i think... literally a couple). Four words here. 凶多吉少。 Really not looking very bright the prospect here even though it seems like a majority have a problem with this paper.

Wednesday 23rd Nov 05
ME2113 : Mechanics Of Materials I

One of the better modules. Could be because most of the materials covered in this module we have already touched on in "statics and mechanics" during semester one or two. Thus still quite manageable. Even though didn't do one out of four questions during the finals, should still be ok. And the dui part is that the way to start on that question only dawned upon me minutes from the "stop writing or your name will be taken and disciplinary action will be taken against you". So in the end also too tired to do anything. Sadly.

Saturday 26th Nov 05
ME2143 : Sensors and Actuators

Only 4MC core module this semester. Yup you read right. All the other are 3MC modules. Told ya this sux. To be truthful i'm feeling quite nervous about this paper beforehand. Maybe due to the fact that i've never been any good with electricity, electric circuits, motors, "electrical engineering" etc. But came out alive and breathing. The one helpsheet allowed at least helped this time. Managed most of the questions other than a couple of parts so should be ok.

Tuesday 29th Nov 05
ME2121 : Engineering Thermodynamics

My last paper!! Normally go into the last paper with a good mood and ended up still happy as it's the end of the exams. No exceptions this time. For the first part that is. Went in real happy. Came out the very direct opposite. The level of dissatisfaction and "loser" feeling comparable to Fluids. Four questions and i can only seriously do one part. One part not one question. But the even sadder thing is that as compared to fluids, more people seem to find no trouble with this paper. A lot more. Even sadder-er is that two of the questions are very similar to tutorial questions. I know i got go through them the night before but some how when inside i just forgot and have no idea of how to solve them. No idea. You know the outcome. If ever there's a module i think i will da-bao... THIS IS IT. Really.

Used to like watching a certain show titled "Beyond Belief : Fact or Fiction" on Tv in the past. In it they re-enacted a few stories or tales and you're supposed to make a guess as to whether that particular story is the truth or a lie. The answers are revealed at the end of the show. Here's my 2005 version of that :

Q: If you studied and worked hard enough before a particular exams, you should be able to at least attempth a couple of questions in the paper.
A: Fiction. I was proven very wrong. My belief in this examination system is now battered and shaken.

Q: Helpsheets are going to be very useful in helping you solve the problems in ou exams.
A: Fiction. Not for me that is.

Q: 3MCs modules SHOULD BE less difficult, tedious and time-exhaustive than 4MCs modules.
A: Fact. Common sense what.

Q: 3MCs modules ARE less difficult, tedious and time-exhaustive than 4MCs modules.
A: Fiction. I was very wrong. I apologise. It's not true. Absolutely not true. My two worse modules are both 3MCs if you know what i mean.

Q: Tutorials are very important and you should at least attempt to aid your understanding instead of smoking your way through.
A: Fact. I realised that now. Too late.


I WILL WORK HARDER AND DO BETTER NEXT SEMESTER!! The usual battle cry. Never fullilled. At least you cannot accuse me of not trying. Who am i kidding here?!


On a happier note.... played soccer the day after my final paper. It's been quite a while.

Verdict : Very unfit.

Hmmm....

Q: What is a newly manufactured helicopter called??

A: H-elephant. (An in-'fant' 'heli'-copter.) Get it?? Not funny right. Sorry ar....

Tune of the Moment : '力量' -- 罗志祥 《催眠SHOW》